Uncertainty….

 

Most nights I stay awake thinking whether the choices I have made in life were right and whether the current route I am pursuing is correct for me, is this what I am meant to be doing or have I got it totally wrong. Each time I remain totally uncertain, perhaps it’s my nature to be so uncertain but I so wish I was not like this. I think, think and think more and this to be honest achieves nothing for me. Maybe reading this, this is something  you can relate to. Though I have no answer for you, on how to rectify this what I can say is that sometimes you just have to trust the journey and now that you’re destined path will open. This however, is easier than done. For me, I rely on God to get me through and each time I feel overwhelmed by my journey I reflect on this quote:

“As I look back on my life, I realize that every time I thought I was being rejected from something good; I was actually being re-directed to something better. You must convince your heart that whatever God has decreed is most appropriate and most beneficial for you.”

-Imam Ghazali

Now I’m aware that everyone does not have faith in God and that’s why if you do have worries and uncertainty in your heart you must find an alternative that can help you and almost soothe your heart in times of uncertainty and difficulty. Truth be told you’ve probably heard this a million times, but worrying is really pointless but humans have an intrinsic trait to obsesses and ponder over negative thoughts and think of the worst possible scenarios that may occur, now I am also guilty of this. For this, you have to change your thought pattern, if you concentrate on a positive thoughts believe me your life will improve endlessly. I truly hope that for someone, somewhere out there this post has helped you……

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Serenity

Stroll

Have you ever wanted to just drop everything and run? Have you ever wanted to travel around the world without a worry in sight? Have you ever just wanted peace?

I’m guessing YES because if your answer is no then your life is way too easy and be grateful because not many are blessed with such a thing. Now your probably wondering where this post is going.

Let me tell you a story.

It was a beautiful sunny morning and I had just landed in Birmingham for an exam at the sweet time of 7:30am. (Those bleeding exams 😦 ) There was literally no-one around probably because they were still sleeping or were still at home like normal people. There are some really fancy-schmancy buildings along my walk towards the university. I was literally strolling along the pavement with the sun burning me and the wind blowing around me and I have to say that I have never felt more at peace then I did then. It was in that moment that I realised that one day i was going to make it. Exams are depressing as f***and know I sit here near the biggest exam of my life 3 years on and I know it’s going to be okay. That stroll I had literally made me drop most of my worries and changed my perspective of my future. I remember thinking “I am going to make it.”

Referring back to the start of this blog post where I asked a few rhetorical questions. They become relevant at this point of the post. You can do all of those things and have all of those if you work hard now. My parents bang on about this all the time and for the last 18 years I have finally realised what they now mean. I am closer to my goal than I have ever been, I have made it. Through bullying, pain, suicidal thoughts feeling like it’s not worth it, I AM HERE!!!!

That stroll changed my life!

I hope I have inspired you a little and I hope you have a lovely day. Until next time 🙂

Review: The Body Shop – Shade Adjusting Drops: Lightening

Welcome to our 1st review 😊

As you would have gathered by the title of this blog post, today I will be reviewing “The Body Shop – Shade Adjusting Drops: Lightening.”

Now every individual living in the UK know how hard it is to maintain a tan because of the horrendous weather patterns. So when you come to realise that your £32.00 foundation is no longer the correct shade you feel like murdering someone. 😈

This happened to me several weeks ago and I was getting ready to go to a wedding. Luckily I had several months ago purchased another foundation (sorry makeup addict here) that was a tad to dark online and could not return it (I know I am an idiot for not going to get matched 😳) So to ensure I had not wasted my money I purchased these shade adjusting drops.

Let me tell you. A few weeks ago this product was a life saver because I had lost my tan and therefore was in desperate need of a lighter foundation. This stuff is legit GOLD. It needs to be in everyone’s makeup kit. I was able to successfully lighten the incriminating foundation.

It gets better trust me. Not only can you buy the Lightening drops, it is also available as Darkening drops aswell. So if you needed to darken your foundation you could. Not only can you do this but you could also darken a bit of your foundation and apply it as a contour. 😲😲

The product itself comes in a dropper bottle and a little goes a long way. There are 2 downsides. Firstly, I find the formula a but gunky but that may just be as a result of storage or not shaking the bottle properly. I am so lazy. 😜 Secondly, the bottle only contains 15mL and is priced at £10. So a tad dear, however it is a lifesaver and prevented me from buying another foundation.

Some people might say just use a lighter foundation to mix in with the darker one. But I find that the consistency changes. With this product, you would never know. It stays the same consistency as it did when it came out the bottle.

On a final note, I have not been paid to do this review and this is my true opinion of the product. I can honestly say that it has been life changing. So I will leave the link down below for you to explore and until next time. 😊

Shade Adjusting Drops –http://m.thebodyshop.co.uk/h5/products?path=%2Fmake-up%2Fview-all%2Fshade-adjusting-drops.aspx

 

The Ultimate Mens Perfume

O.M.G.

It just smells so good. If my man wore this I wouldn’t go to work I would spend all day sniffing him. Your probably thinking what a weirdo and what the hell is she talking about.

YSL L’Homme. (http://www.yslbeauty.co.uk/fragrance/for-him/l-homme/l-homme-eau-de-toilette-spray/3365440643659.html?gclid=CjwKEAjwu6a5BRC53sW0w9677RcSJABoFn4smWKqwFVWzlV7Xzax0MehXOtgE1lLCZQE5uc_j27e5BoCarvw_wcB&gclsrc=aw.ds&dclid=CIbllsa_wcwCFRKfFgod_8wHIg)

This is heaven in a bottle. I am not being paid to say this. Legitimately the best perfume I have ever smelt. If I could wear it I would and I am a woman.

It is a bit dear but my dear god 😍

Can you tell I’m in love.

The bottle looks suave, none of this gold bar and fancy schmancy nonsense (sorry Paco Rabanne). I can’t even describe the smell to you guys, it smells sexy!! Simple. YSL have literally made my life complete.

I’m getting emotional now but this is where I leave you. Not a review but just to create awareness of this heavenly scent.

Take care and until next time.

 

Can’t take it anymore…

As I lie here and you read on, the hope instilled in my soul dwindles even more. The days keep passing by but the same s**t just keeps on happening.

Is it worth it? Shall I give up? Torn between life and death. A decision I need to make.

The laughs, the jeers. Is it me or is it them? Paranoia becomes my best friend. I sit in an emotional mess everyday. Do I really want to go on? 2 years, 3 years..how many more can I take?

I see no light and I hear evil. Do I want to be a part of this corruption anymore?

Save me or kill me. It is in your hands.

This may sound really confusing to most of you guys. However, read deeper and in between the lines. Bullying and suicide is an issue that is growing uncontrablly everyday and it is something dear to my heart. I speak from experience and I know how it feels. Keep going is my advice to you. Karma’s a bitch and it’s going to bite their ar**s soon! Count on it. Make something of youself. Be big. Make them jealous…

Until next time.