A short one…

Hello, I hope you’re doing well today. If not, go give someone you love a hug because nothing makes you more happy than putting a smile on another persons face.

Now the title of this blog post really does mean what it says. It is going to be a short one unfortunately as I have a life-changing exam in 19 days and writing a blog post is something I just have to do right this minute. ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜„

Bullying. I know I write several blog posts about bullying, but I have been feeling a little low so blogging is my way of speaking out about it.

I was bullied for 6 years.

And today of all days when I should be revising I start thinking about what used to happen to me.

It is not a nice feeling at all. The jeers, the laughs, the paper balls to my head. Yes I have been there. ๐Ÿ˜”

I hate bullying with a passion and it makes me so angry that idiots can get away with such things. They are not human. Because if they were they would not have done what they did to me. There were several times where suicide became an option in my eyes. There was no-where else to go. I was alone.

My relationship with God was re-established because I was alone. God was my saviour. I used to cry myself to sleep at night. I had only God to talk to. Slowly but surely I rose above everything with these two beliefs. Everything happens for a reason and God is the best of planners.

My mental battle between life and death was forgotten because God became my purpose in life. Now your probably sat there thinking, how can God affect someone so much. I was alone. I had no-one else. I would read statuses online everyday on my Facebook page about hardships and tests. I was educating myself on the wonders of the past. I was seeing changes in my life that only God could instill. For the first time in 6 years I was seeing and feeling happiness.

I know this was meant to be a short one. Well when I let my emotions out there is no stopping me.

On a final note I would like to say that whatever your going through there is a reason for it and it will end. Keep going and keep fighting. Do it for yourself and your loved ones. Make yourself and them happy. Remember suicide only passes on the pain to another.

Until next time.

P.S. if you need someone to talk to anonymously then please do not hesitate to message us at facelessbanter@gmail.com.ย Thank you and take care. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Can’t take it anymore…

As I lie here and you read on, the hope instilled in my soul dwindles even more. The days keep passing by but the same s**t just keeps on happening.

Is it worth it? Shall I give up?ย Torn between life and death. A decision I need to make.

The laughs, the jeers. Is it me or is it them? Paranoia becomes my best friend. I sit in an emotional mess everyday. Do I really want to go on? 2 years, 3 years..how many more can I take?

I see no light and I hear evil. Do I want to be a part of this corruption anymore?

Save me or kill me. It is in your hands.

This may sound really confusing to most of you guys. However, read deeper and in between the lines. Bullying and suicide is an issue that is growing uncontrablly everyday and it is something dear to my heart. I speak from experience and I know how it feels. Keep going is my advice to you. Karma’s a bitch and it’s going to bite their ar**s soon! Count on it. Make something of youself. Be big. Make them jealous…

Until next time.